A few months ago, I was in a downward spiral of self-doubt and felt like I wanted to just give up. I went for a run to try to shake it off, but the grip it had on me was too strong this time. I had a potent case of the “I’m not good enough’s, I’m not smart enough’s, the who do I think I am’s, and the what will they think’s”. Self-doubt and worry have been something that I’ve struggled with for as long as I can remember. And at times I still do. I catch myself choosing the safe route for fear of what ‘might’ happen, or assuming that someone else is more deserving, can do it better than me, or that everyone is judging me. I have a habit of shutting down when this happens, but this time I chose to reach out instead.
So on the corner of the street, all sweaty from my run, tears streaming down my face; I called my twin brother Justin. Because I know he can always make me laugh. After I shared my fears, my doubts, and shed a few more tears, I paused and it was his turn to talk.
This is what he said:
At first I was impressed…. When did he become so good at rhyming??? And then I realized that he was reciting my favourite childhood poem. I had given this very book to my nephew for his birthday a few months prior. I even read it to him (with tears streaming down my face) the night before I left Toronto to fly home to Vancouver. And now, it came full circle. My brother was reading it to me. As a grown adult.
Something clicked for me that day. Of course, I’ve had my ups and downs since this poem hit me right in the heart. But I KNOW that I AM destined for big things; I’m here for a bigger purpose; and if it’s meant to be, it’s up to ME!
I am far too smart to be the only thing standing in my way – and the same goes for all of YOU reading this. We all have so so so so much love, passion, knowledge, energy, excitement, sass, adventure, courage, and unique gifts to share with the world. Don’t let fear or the excuse of lack of support stand in your way – ask for it, and be willing to receive it. Yes silencing negative self-talk and limiting beliefs takes time, and definitely a lot of consistency, but the first step is deciding that you’re worth that time. YOU ARE. WE ALL ARE. What ever it is you’re telling yourself that you can’t do or that you don’t deserve. Stop it. Stop it, right now. Don’t deprive the world of your gift, or wait any longer to make that positive change in your life. TAKE THAT FIRST STEP, no matter how small it may seem. It’s in the right direction.
Because TODAY is YOUR day and YOUR Mountain is waiting!
Do you have something holding you back? Comment below with your NEXT FIRST STEP!
Until next time,
Simply Love Yourself, Eat Real Food, and Move Your Body.
Nutrition Coach Jen