Blog #5 ~ The Jane Experiment
Why do we do the things that we do?
Whoa, heavy topic for a health and fitness blog!
It’s something that I often wonder. I used to assume we do things; such as eat, sleep, cry, laugh because of instinct. Born that way, no control, or we don’t know any other way. What if our instinct, or mine at least, is just to feel good, ALL THE TIME? Because thats what it occasionally feels like.
I’ve been asking myself; ‘How do I know if I’m hungry or sleepy?’ Really how do we know? It kind of goes back to the listening and translating idea I explored a few weeks ago. I’m just starting to give myself the time to recognize these feelings even. Before, I would just hop into bed and have a nap, or dash down to the store and eat as fast as possible.
If it’s a Basic Instinct to want to feel good and take care of ourselves, why do we self sabotage? Do you ever say you want one thing but do another? Look good in a bikini – eat a whole pie? Want a loving relationship – fall for a guy who’s a jerk? What instinct are we embracing then?
And then there’s all the worrying and complaining and weighing of options. Such a time-consuming practise! I may be projecting, but I think we fear choosing the wrong instinct, or answer or path. I know I do.
But I can’t help but think there has got to be a better way to look at it.
As I was getting ready to work out the other day, I was moping and moaning to myself. All like ‘Ugh I have to work out!’
Then I stopped myself, in my tracks, and asked ‘Do I Have to?’ Like, who says I do? Who cares?
Then it hit me, I GET to. I get to work out. I have a body. I can feel, I can express, I can change, I can grow, and alter, and improve, I can chose.
It’s actually kind of awesome, awesome-sauce! I know we may be told as children, and as adults, that we are all special and to be grateful! But hearing that didn’t necessarily make it sink in for me.
Even when I was writing this blog this week, I was mulling to myself ‘What do I talk about? I HAVE to find something interesting to say!’ But the beauty is; I GET to. I get to talk to you. I get to share with you.
Human connection is one of my highest values, but I’m so comfortable with wallowing and putting things off, and not pushing myself that I limit myself, and put a negative spin on things that could be positive.
I do this with people, at the gym, at my job. I forget that I do actually get to choose what I do, and how I do it. Boy, is that inspiring! We are human and we can do more than just follow instinct.
One month ago, Chad started an Evernote Fitness Challenge: Get outside and move for 15 minutes a day. Well I didn’t quite do 30 days consistently, but it’s been in the back of my mind, urging me to go outside. And outside my comfort zone, away from my instinct that I need more sleep and to stay in bed.
I almost feel like I’ve been pushed into a war zone; with scary, healthy looking foods, running, listening to my body and treating it with love and care.
As I’ve been trying to treat myself with compassion I sometimes want to indulge in things like chocolate bars, or day dreaming. But when I really think about it, what is it that I want in that moment I think I want candy. Maybe I just want to feel better, feel loved, asap, by eating or fixing.
On some level I want to be super skinny, but also indulge the ‘instinct’ to eat gluten-free cake or potato chips whenever I want, and not have to run them off! Realistic, I know.
I’m starting to feel like I’m getting to a very settled place, where I ask myself if that’s really what Healthy Jane wants, in that moment and in the future. Maybe it is; I had an amazing glass of wine a few nights ago and a great nap yesterday afternoon. I’m not nay-saying doing nice, indulgent things, I’m just proposing the idea that perhaps we can monitor our ‘instincts’ a little more and discern the difference between needing something and enjoying something.
As a bonus I lost 5lbs! And I’ve been on as little artificial, processed sugar as possible over the last week! Listening pays off.
How’s the listening going for you? Do you feel like we have instincts we can’t ignore? What runs us, the body or the mind?
If you’ve been doing the Evernote Fitness Challenge, don’t forget the Twitter Party on Tuesday. Details will be on the Facebook page.
Have a great weekend!